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Reasons why it cant happen


I keep thinking of it over and over again till my eyes become dizzy . My brain keeps repeating the reasons in the hope that my heart Will listen. The two majors reasons are  i am not sure if i really need this even if i am crazy about him and the second major reason is he does not like me.The purpose of writing this is i need a outlet or i l really go mad.Everything msg he sends and everything word he talks triggers something within me. I know it is not love not even crush . I cannot name or identify this feeling . I have no idea of the past and no hope for the future. But still my heart pains and questions me. I don't have the courage to stop msging him nor stop it from affecting me. I know i am crazy but this is me and i cannot help.it I have a lot of reasons why this can't happen . The problem is cant stop from heart from thinking about him. I know we dont have any future or even traces of it.But still. I always like land up liking the guy who does not like me. This is making me depressed. I wana know him better to decide if this has chance but we dont have time. The next time i meet him i would be probably married or engaged. Ya its gona be a year away. I have no hopes of finding Mr.Right but managing losing anyone close to it.

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