Me and my thoughts

Dear God, This is for you I am scared that you may feel offended If I tell you how I feel But given that , you know it already I am writing this I am sorry if I am wrong Which I am generally I trust you and only you I hope you know it I can feel your presence at most times Sometimes I feel very lonely And left out I feel lost and hopeless I know you have plans for me Just that I feel clueless at most times I don't know which direction to go I sometimes need a hand to hold And a shoulder to cry And I just don't feel you I don't know what to ask you Because I don't know what I need Please help me Or please take me with you At least to hell

She is the one sitting next to you She is the one who laughs at the stupidest jokes She is the one who stares vaguely at a real joke She is the one who smiles when her eye cries She is the one who suddenly becomes silent She might not be pretty enough for you to notice her She might not be smart enough She might not be nothing either She yearns for a honest smile And for a comforting hand Yet she is an expert in hiding her disappointment She just fades away over a point of time You  can change it though Make her smile for real

I don't remember you anymore Just that I am not able to forget you I don't think of you anymore Just that I have stopped thinking I dont miss you that much Just that the world seemed to have stopped You don't have a place in my heart Just that the place is empty Its not that you are not replaceable Just that may no one fits your place I try to escape your venom Just that it seems impossible

I did not realise how true those words were Until I saw it Every time I come to see you Magically my mind stops tinking And all my sorrows disappear I feel the warmth inside me And harmony spread over me The place is cold But that does not affect me Nor anyone around me You make my worries go away And fill me with peace and happiness I just wish I can stay here And enjoy the comfort Adoration chapel A place where god comforts

I suddenly realized that I don't hate hospitals anymore I realized doctors were not my enemies Going to a hospital daily seemed a natural thing to do I stopped grumbling at nurses I was surprised and shocked 365 days ago When I first stepped into a hospital I had no clue what I was going to do I still don't have y a clue I was excited also Now the excitement has gradually subsided And has changed into responsibility My team might not agree though Everyday was new Everyday was different Changes were constant Some times changes was life changing Yet we managed to pull through it Thanks to my team Every small approval caused a lot of joy The reality was hurting at times Sometimes everything was like a mirage Still I managed to handle it With challenges everyday But with happiness and pride That I have successfully completed 365 days I move on

Pouring into earth Water from heaven But honey to the earth The sight of her causes joy To the young and old And also to the tot and toddlers Its quite some time Since you have come You sight fills everyone with happiness Everywhere is green with greenery The touch of you makes me happy You make my sorrow flow out With the same speed you flow You make me watch you without battling a eye Which I will do Till my last sleep

I am in confusion as usual I wana get over it I actually dont like him anyway He does not affect me the way he used to Somewhere along the line, I got over him Still I am not able to actuallyleave him completely Its more of a habit now I realised his msgs nor his avoidance matters anymore I am happy now Still I wana end it completely I dont wana have any strings attached I am just worried that my heart will go crazy again May be resisting is difficult And he is not good for him Yet still my heart yearns Maybe a Little space might help Hopefully..

We are just rambling About technology, trends and more We are talking about our First mobile experience I realised the gap between the relationship No, This is not a classic whining write up It may be a little boring though The tots now are mobile pros And I did not even know the spelling when I was one The advancement in technology is so huge and tremendous And it is a little scary also We watsapp , chat , ping, comment, like and what not We are constantly available connected in the virtual world The world has become a really small world And Google is our best friend Anything from a restaurant to recipe Tips , Advice and almost everything Expect Life's important questions, Of course Still Everyone are near but far The warmth of our childhood is certainly missing The technology growth have reduced the many small joys of life There are many things which we have missed out In the face of technology Letters, toffees on the street, the fairs These things are st

Not Movies are interesting Especially when u don't understand it Being a movie freak I watch all languages Of course with subtitles This movie was one of the many movies like have And it was on long due So I decided to watch it The wiki version seemed fun And so was the movie The story line was real It depicted the insecurities and wishes of not one But five individuals The best part was It was neat Not a minute was boring Aju with his past nightmare and biking Kuttan with his nativity love and future dreams Divya with her MBA and marriage The movie had a touch of humor, love , loss and more Overall A good movie

Hey sweet heart You love me so much That you don't leave me easily You come into me at the smallest opportunity You capture me into your wings You make my breath to stop You irritate me to death You hold on to me As if its your last day on earth You make me call Jesus many times a day Ya you make me pious You actually grow on me You make me feel that I am cheating you If I take a medication Or that the reason I claim to stay with you Be it whatever reason you come You leave at your own pace Sometimes you spread your goodness I wish I could escape you Still it does not seem possible With sneeze and cough You stay behind Cold, common cold

When I first met you I thought you were the sweetest person on earth I thought you were smart and  handsome I wished that I would become your world The irony is You said you felt the same about me I was too naive to Understand the truth and lies of it I felt we were meant to be together Your words made it easier to believe Your sweet nothing words made me smile Your small silences made me cry When reality intervened You made me question everything You taught me a lot of things Yet the fees for it was tears I have invested my time and energy Just to be with you And in the dreams of our life together Smaller fights became wars And slowly the bond became weak Wear and tear destroys anything So did the relationship I sacrificed too many things for you And I don't even have a track of it Guilty took over love And the fear of being alone inclusive These drove us into a meaningless relationship We tried working else out But the magic had died I just could not

Its been more than many days Many days have flown by Many nights have walked by There were many Minutes which looked like mountains Many seconds of distress Still I managed to survive Yet something which is fascinating Something which surprises me Is that The intensity of the pain has not reduced Even by a inch Maybe the minutes have reduced Still the pain is the same You still have the ability To make my heart stop When I think of you

O Mother, I am loss of words When I want to write about you Whenever I look at you You make me feel so loved Your eyes are always filled with care For me And for the whole city You hold us tight And save us night and day You create miracles in a wink You shower us with affection And guard us always O Mother Pray for us

I look around for a tree to hold I fly as far as my strength could take me I sometimes see a mirage And travel , just to realise its false I  get hurt And break into pieces Still try and try To find a hold in it Something to hold on And something which will hold me Sometimes I get the feeling that this is the one Only to die again And start searching all over again Maybe the search will continue Till I find a hold Or till my last breath I would keep floating and drifting Till then