Me and my thoughts

Do you take this man as your lawfully wedded husband, asked the priest? I do, blushed the bride. Do you take this woman as your lawfully wedded wife? I do, said the groom. He slowly put the wedding ring in her hand. The ring was 8 grams gold with a sparkling blue stone. The blue matched the eyes of the bride. She smiled happily at the ring. The ring was a symbol of a new relationship and a new life. It was more precious than all her wealth put together. She let out a deep sigh and felt a rush of joy and anticipation run through her. Sweta Krishnan entered her new house feeling happy and tensed at the same time. Love cum Arranged Marriage. She did not know Krishnan for years. Still she felt an invisible bond between them the minute she met him. Everything else was a blur. She literally counted every second from that moment till now. She could not wait to start a life with him.   Her face turned red when she saw him staring at her. Her body shivered in anticipation. Krishnan l

I know it is not meant to work I know it is better I know God might have a better plan I know this had to happen a some point I know the good side of this I know I have to just move on I know I should relieved I know I can go back and pretend I am happy I know the pain will make me numb But still I know it is beyond me To accept it The pain and the loniliness

I wish I could change a lot of things in my life It would have made our life easier I wish I could bring the gap That seperates us I wish I could take back words So It does not hurt anymore I wish we could cross barriers So we dont have to fight for it I wish our families were connected So we make everyone happy I wish our expectations are less So we can bring that smile easily I wish some magic happens But miracles dont happen always I even wish I have not met you I could have avoided this pain I cant make you love me I just wish I could But it is something beyond me

I was freaking hungry. I am always hungry is a different deal. After a disappointment shopping trip and missed lunch, I went to Raaj Bhavan. Tiffin or Meals asked the waiter. After thinking for quite some time, We settled for Schewan Fried Rice and American Chopsuey. Sounds fancy right. Maybe not the kind of food, I was hoping for. But my hungry pangs managed to convince my fluctuating mind. After waiting for 15 minutes, the food arrived. The fried noodles was hard and the sauce did not do much to soften it. The taste was Indochinese. I even wondered if it was Made in China. The food managed to satisfy my hungry pangs. But left my taste buds to crave for more. The Schewan Fried Rice was red in colour. I was even calculating the amount of damage the spices  might do to my stomach lining. The minute I tasted it, My worries was lost. It did not have any flavor it. I was shocked. I saw a different variety of the spicy schewan fried rice. The chilli was replaced with the kesari powder. T

I dont know why i am so addicted to you You are not so enticing I dont know why I cant stop thinking of you You are not so sweet I dont know why I cant stop caring for you You are not so loving I just know I am not myself when it comes to you And you expect me to keep changing

The smile on the face of the maharaja the minute I gave me ten bucks sent my thoughts back to my childhood. This maharaja is not the ruler of any kingdom but the parking space outside the restaurant. He  opens the door and wishes every one who visits the restaurant. 10 rupees does not mean a lot to most of us. We do not think twice before spending it. Long gone are the time when 10 rupees mattered so much. Hundred bucks was a treat and 500 bucks was a luxury and gift from God. The major reason technically is the money value has dropped tremendously. And the expenses and expectations have changed. The lifestyle changes has created a new law. The income is almost equal or always lesser than the expenditure. I always wonder if this law applies only to me. A chat with few of my friends and I felt happy that I was not alone. Gone are the days when the maximum spend for a family dinner was Rs.600 on an average. The family consisted of four or more people. Today minimum cost for two is Rs.

Nothing lasts in life The scorching heat Nor the biting cold Nothing lasts The happy sigh The endless chatter The silent ecstacy The sense of completion The meaningless fights The lonely nights The morning wishes Does not last Nothing lasts But the pain It loves me so much That it never lets me go And it so possessive That it dominates the other feelings Sometimes even me It pulls me deeper And stops me from breathing May the only way to conquer him is death He might dominate me in the end But it pangs does not have strength In the other world Atleast I hope so

Relationships are complicated. Sometimes the more complicated than the human body. Relationship is one of the few things where English Vocabulary fails. Too few words to describe too many versions of it. Relationships seemed the sweetest thing till I finished High School. The Era of Mom, Dad, Aunt, Uncle, Brother, Sister,Niece, Nephew and in one word family. Everything felt simple and happy. Complications grew as our world became bigger. The minute we speak to the opposite gender, who is not blood - related the drama and trauma begins. Maybe because it is taboo in the Indian society, Opposite gender relationships are always a battle. Parents load the kids with bogeyman stories and Kids gets a different version from friends. I never ever learned the lesson or meaning of a relationship with boys and men. Both are different and it is to be handled with care. We always learn our first lessons from home. Right from cooking to company management. And this is a lesson unlearned.The society

The cold wind hit me I woke up with a fright The world was dark And It was filled with silent The only sound was my tear hitting the ground I tried walking in search of a light Thorns pricked my feet And boulders tripped me I spread my hand to feel the place And realised it was broken The howling wolves threatened me And darkness closed on me And then I realised that I was alone And you were not near me

A mild pain spread through my heart I was too busy wiping tears And busier trying to reach you The pain grew along with the time Every second was a century I wanted to turn time back And change a few things if I can I was not sure which hurt more The hatred in your face Or the pain in your eyes The doubts eating you Or the past haunting me The spoken words Or the silent love I wanted to hold your hand And never let it go The pain bothered me I realised it almost stopped I no longer felt the beat And the darkness engulfed me I slowly rebooted when I saw u And I realised It beats because of you And for you