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My greatest fear

My greatest fear is not living alone
It is dying alone
People always just use me
And I have had no one when i actually need someone
I might or might not be economically stable
But I will never be emotionally safe
Physically I can handle
But Mentally I will always be a wreck
With a plastic smile always on my face
And with a heart bleeding
I will stay awake all night and day
For death to embrace me
The worst failure in my life
Is not people ditching me
Is not nature being against me
Is not non availabily of anythinf
Is not even loniliness
Is giving up hope
And meeting death before she comes to me
Even then
My greatest fear is not living alone
It is dying alone

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  1. madhanOctober 22, 2014 at 3:34 PM

    Lovely lines jeni..
    A plastic smiles always on my face.
    nice to read in these lines jeni

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