Me and my thoughts

I was asleep, deep asleep My heart was frozen And it forgot to feel I just walked on the earth Still I was dead In many ways I forgot to smile I forgot to cry I forgot to be me I laughed without happiness And cried because I could not feel I hated my eyes Because it reminded me of my death I was on the verge of it With all hopes lost And as dark clouds threaten to engulf me You came as a rainbow To bring me back to life To make my life colourful To fill it with hope and joy You made me smile Smile for real Not just the photograph type But the real one when my eyes smile Along with my lips You made me blush You made me cry You gifted me the courage to feel You warmed my frozen heart Your touch made me feel safe Your eyes made me feel alive Even the silence was beautiful You woke me from my sleep With a promise of a life A life filled with roses and thorns Still with your touch to handle it

I woke up with a start And realised I lost her She was my strength She was my hope She made me breathe She prepared me for the worst And she suddenly disappeared In her place Is a girl who is weak A girl who is insecure A girl who hopes for change A girl who craves attention A girl who believes in love Maybe even a life after I am worried that she will be hurt Yet you hold her You are her strength now I dont know if it is true But you woke her up And she might never recover If she loses you because I lost myself and found you

When you see something for the first time It seems new It seems unique It seems tempting The next time you see it You long for it You dream a life with it You wish it was yours The minute it is yours You cherish it You treasure it You value every minute with it After you get it Life becomes sweet Every second becomes a blessing And then slowly The faults become more pronounced The magic slowly disappears The enegry becomes diverfised Maybe because the love is not enough Maybe there are other priorities Maybe it is the sense of belonging Maybe because familarity breeds contempt Whatever the reason is Cant the magic just stay Or How do We make it stay

I rolled over in my sleep.I bumped into a warm body next to me. Warm? I woke up in a start. He pulled me closer. Sleep Jessi, He said. How did you come here? I asked him. He gave a weird look and it looked cute. God , Is this love. I pondered. Is it a dream? Even if it is a dream, I did not want to wake up in the fear of losing the warmth. I just wanted to hold on to it as long as i can. He murmured something in my ears. It was not audible. But it spoke volumes of love. I rested my head on his chest and his heart beat sang lullabies until I fell asleep. Morning came soon. Relativity theorem. I woke up with a smile. I blushed thinking about my dream. Suddenly an arm  draped me. I freaked. I need coffee he demanded. What are you doing here? I panicked. He just smiled and gave a lazy look. Questions bubbled along with the boiling milk. Karthik, Brush I shouted. Ouch I yelped as I accidentally touched the hot vessel. He was near me in an instant scolding me and caressing me at the...

It is a first It is different It is unique It feels warm It feels cold It feels good It feels safe It feels natural It makes me smile It makes me cry It makes me think It makes me shout It makes me scared It makes me insecure It makes me strong It make me weak It is a treat in itself It is a curse I am not sure where it will lead me I am not sure if dreams come true I am not sure if miracles happen But this is how i feel And i will fill the space With smile

Every time a wind crosses me It leaves a impact Sometimes it caress me Sometimes it creates a storm Sometimes it just passes by When it stays It makes me sweat So it can be sweet It makes me laugh So it can smile It makes me cry So it can be strong It creates a memory Sometimes its lost Sometimes it becomes a nightmare Sometimes it just stays Ultimately it just leaves Either because it is bored Or because it has other priorities Or because nature has it planned that way Or maybe because it was not meant to be Hey wind, please take me heart when you leave me It is broken and scattered But please dont take my sleep Take my life instead

Why does it happen to me always? Why cant I be crazy sometimes Why cant I be angry at times Why cant I be stupid at times Why do I always have to be sensible Why do I always  have to be calm Why do I always have to be strong? Why do I always have to act? Why cant I be me? Atleast for sometime Atleast to some people