Me and my thoughts

Sometimes people take you for granted Sometimes people just ignore your feelings Sometimes people just trample your heart Sometimes they think You are a their pet or something Its just a throw and catch game They forget you have a heart They forget you have emotions They might not do it on purpose But they forget that you have a life It comes as a surprise to them Sometimes a shock The sad part is this is not the worst If your loved one does this You feel hurt and alone If it is not your loved one We might not mind it at all If your loved one can't hurt you Then how does it feel All of a sudden you realise The person who u adored Has no control on you They might never realise this But you feel anger on both And a empty space It also hurts When your loved one Loses the power to hurt you

I know you are with me Its just that i cant feel you I know you wont forsake me Its just that I am in darkness I know you will be there for me Its just that I am feeling alone I know you can make miracles happen Its just that I am in need of one I know you have a plan for me Its just that I don’t have a purpose I honestly trust you Please don’t think I don’t Its just tat I am too exhausted to live Can I please die God?

I look around and find almost nothing The light is too bright to see I see people around me But I find it difficult to reach out I am in a middle of a crowd Still feel alone I hear the laughter around me I am not able to feel it My eyes yearns to let out my feeling But my tears have run out I move around trying to get a hold of life But find it slippery and cold I try to find a hold But i am unable to find it My hope of light diminishes As everyday passes by One day, When the light goes off And the darkness conquers me I might disappear into nothing

When we first met , we were strangers When we first spoke, we were trying to be friends Maybe even trying to impress each other Maybe even a little doubtful about each other Slowly the cloud disperses as the time grows And we grow closer Gradually you become a part of each other And sometimes even inseperable We become each other morning alarm Each other food and enegry Each other's breath Each other's smile Each other's tears Each other's pillow Each other's dreams Almost everything for each other And suddenly The magic bursts Leaving confusion and chaos behind Be it emotional or something Needles out there are many But the burst leaves behind the same feelings It makes us feel lost It makes us feel insecure It makes us feel alone It makes us feel negative It changes the perspective of the world It makes us feel drained It makes the world colourless We just return to be strangers But with a bond That can neither be broken nor bonded ...

It may not be right It may not be correct It may not be wrong either Atleast according to me If it is wrong Many simple and complicated things would become wrong Right from chocolates to croces Is one form of corruption Sometimes it becomes mandatory In some aspects of life When it goes a little beyond control It is said to be wrong But is it How do we draw a line When you give a child a chocolate  To get a work done It is called love When you money or something to someone To get a work done It is called corruption Where does this start The first day of our life for many The toys used to distract the baby To feed her food The gift promised to him To make him work harder Simple things starts the criteria We have reached a point Where everything happens for something This has been become a base criteria But it is not wrong It is just unavoidable It is too much into the system Setting a limit might be feasible This may seem heartless But that the way to keep the bea...

I dont know when you were born I dont know who caused your beginning I dont know the reason behind your birth I did not even know you before a year I never ever expected you to know you Nor to like you so much I never knew you will become so important to me or maybe us You were just like anyother thing in the beginning You were just a bunch of items put together I never understood the purpose Nor could decipher the meaning I felt like you were a tradition passed over to us We even forgot about you In the chaos of work You were just a part of the weekly report and the occasional joke There were times we thought you were never going to happen You were just a part of the multitude of papers Suddenly, one fine day You came to life With vigour and enegry When questions were raised about you We realized how clueless we were When deadlines were given We got into mindless and aimless working And managed to finish you on time Before we could breathe Came the biggest b...

My greatest fear is not living alone It is dying alone People always just use me And I have had no one when i actually need someone I might or might not be economically stable But I will never be emotionally safe Physically I can handle But Mentally I will always be a wreck With a plastic smile always on my face And with a heart bleeding I will stay awake all night and day For death to embrace me The worst failure in my life Is not people ditching me Is not nature being against me Is not non availabily of anythinf Is not even loniliness Is giving up hope And meeting death before she comes to me Even then My greatest fear is not living alone It is dying alone

It is the most difficult thing on earth It is literally impossible It has the ability to seem as the easiest thing on earth Even when your heart breaks into pieces And you eyes run out of tears It might not be possible It has a mind of it own And no one on earth Has the strength to change it Nor force it to happen It does happen Even if not completely Atleast to a major extent It makes a mess of us And leaves night mares behind It is the gift of every broken relationship Even the angry and hurt Cant match it It is the only way to heal It teaches us a lesson Whether we follow it or not It is the only way to overcome a loss You have to just let it go It seems impossible But time makes it probable

 Imagine a road without Garbage Imagine a street without potholes Imagine a lane without grumbling people Who complain about dirty roads With every dustbin in place Imagine a beach with only sand and water and happy people Imagine a nation where every road, street,lane and doorstep is clean Cleaner than ever Cleaner than humanly possible Dust has become a part of our life It seems a little weird to imagine a life without it We grumble, complain Yet drop the wrapper in the middle of the road A tidy street always raises eyebrows Maybe we are too lazy to keep it clean Maybe its a part of our genetic makeup Maybe its a part of our life But It definitely useful To keep our nation clean It makes us proud for sure It has a 100 of reasons to do it Right from hygiene to Hitech But the major being it will make of us proud Of achieving something literally impossible Maybe its time to stop grumbling And takes things into our hands Or maybe to the dustbin Its time t...

You are special to me You are my sweet heart You are my enemy You were my heart beat You are my stress You taught me a lot of things You taught me to survive You taught me to stand up for me You made me cry You made me smile You understood my cravings You fought for me You bullied me You gave me confidence You helped me face the world You are a rarity You are a jerk You gave a lot of memories You gave me pain You made me feel good You held me tight when i wanted to leave And left me all of a sudden Missing you is one part You are too much into me To let it go easily I will be over you Like many others things But you are always a memory To make me cry and smile Maybe Its for the good And I am happy for you

Its time Good byes can always be difficult Its like losing a part of yourself The pain The disappointment The loniliness The angry The insecurities The numbness The long pauses The silence Is all too much to bear But in a way its good It is a necessary part of a relationship Every relationship cant last Most actually dont Every good thing has to come to an end And its time Good thing ends better with good byes Good bye. Yes I am sad I will miss you But I am Happy and Relieved

Why is it I am always Option B Why is it people always take me for granted Why is it people forgot I have a heart Why is it people just throw me away Without even a second thought Why is it I am so vulnerable Why is it I am so patient Why is it I am so clueless Why is it I am so unlucky Why is it People just use me And I allow it Why is it I am always meant to be alone Why is it I  dont feel a part of this place Why is it I trust ppl even after getting beaten up Why is it my heart always learns for love

You feel new to me Everytime you come You pierce me with your sharp stings And break my heart to shreds How come I dont become immune to you Nor any vaccination has been discovered yet You strike with the same intensity And leave at the same pace You have the ability to stop all Processes of life You sometimes a rarity Sometimes a gift You freeze my life And pause things around me  You are cruel Yet you are honest You leave great scars But help me heal Pain you Really Hurt