Me and my thoughts

Solitude is a strange emotion We love and fear it at all times Everyone wants some in their lives Yet fear it with their souls We were born alone And will probably leave in the same way But we yearn for company in  the middle We wish to be a part of a group We even time our attitude to fit in Even the loneliest soul needs compassion Though we might not accept it openly However this companionship is an illusion It is always there but never there We wade through a series of people And give it a name of our choice We justify it and give ourselves a reason Nevertheless we are pushed to battle our solitude At so many points in our life We yearn and hate it at the same time The challenge lies in finding the balance The harmony in solitude

They broke me Every day was a fight A fight with the world A fight within myself I tried my best to keep up To stay ignorant To tell myself that is it was for the greater good A good that was no where in sight Every action sliced through my heart Every silence ripped me apart I cried a thousand tears To the words To the indifference And the insecurity I told myself tomorrow would be better That there was hope at the end The pain made me feel alive Told me that I had a reason to fight Told me that I cared Today was different Nothing made an impact It did not cause pain I did not feel angry Just let the words brush by me I viewed it like an observer Justified the accusations And moved on It no longer hurts I stopped caring There is no reason to fight It  seems they have won They broke me to the point of no return There is nothing left to hold me To give me hope Everyday would be the same And I don't think I would care