What do i want

Everyday when I pray
It leaves me relieved and confused
Relieved because somebody is listening to me
Confused because I don't know what to ask
It is little shocking and embarrassing
Bcos even after a quarter century
I have not figured out
What do I want
Do I want a better career
Do I need the strength to move on
Do I need to keep my family happy
Do I need an undo button
I pondered over a hundred reasons
Still did not land up anywhere
Little shocking and depressing
Yet I keep asking me
And yet to figure out
What do I want