Me and my thoughts

Most of us are not lucky to find our true love at one attempt like portrayed in novels and movies. Some of us go through a lot of trauma and relationships before finding the right guy or settling for the almost right guy. My life is filled with people who have been an incredible part of my life and people who have left me with a strong impact. Most relationships are not meant to last, but they leave a long standing Impact on us. During the dark days, these relationships bring a smile and warm your frozen heart. As adolescence, the relationship begins with a crush and grows into a more mature soul searching experience. Some bring joys. Some bring sorrow.   Still, it holds a special place in our memoirs. The day I met him, I knew we had a deep connection. It was beyond common sense and knowledge.   It was thrilling and a scary thought. I felt connected despite various odds. My imagination ran wild and captured every moment in a parallel dimension. Deep down, it would n...

Every child is influenced by the country he/she is born. We are genetically programmed and certain characteristics are inbred in our DNA.   Everything about us, right from our skin colour to the food we eat and the way we react to a situation depends on the country we are born into. India is country enriched with diversity, culture and more importantly humanity. Indians are loyal, warm and filled with concern. It is true that sometimes they seem indifferent to their surroundings. But they access the situation and strive hard till they succeed when they fight for a cause. The renowned Jallikattu war showed the perseverance and agility of the Tamilians. The whole nation supported the cause, even though they were not related to it. The peace war raged for 15 days and the youth stood brave despite various hindrances and threats. The Indian bravery and courage stood strong in their non violence and achieved their demand. As I stood along with them to fight for our rights, I noti...

I looked at my phone for the hundredth time Today was not the first day It was quite repetitive for the past few weeks Most days were a blur Amidst a host of activities Still, some days were more strong They reminded me of the indifference and pain Insecurity corroded me from inside Every morning, I sent a message or two I never knew what I hoped for Still, I held on to the little shimmer My emotion and intellect fought to retrieve me Still, emotions won the game I badly wanted to give up To move on My heart broke every time a call went unnoticed And when a message was ignored She valiantly stepped in And fought the battle Today, I am ready to let go But I have my dignity intact

The clock stuck 12.00 The road was almost deserted Rain and wind drenched the earth The luggage I held pulled me down I looked longingly at my dead phone Civilisation seemed a decade away A few creepy eyes followed by every move The wind howled louder than my scream Something pushed me to take a step forward She nudged me to walk She soothed my cold heart And urged me to make a change And courage smiled As I walked with her

As a teenager, I was pretty new to this emotion I never knew when she captured me Maybe when a handsome guy stared right into my eyes Or at least I hoped he was Maybe when I dreamed about my then favourite movie star I never would really know But she was a mystery in those days She made me believe that I was happy She allowed butterflies graze through me She created warm me She made me smile for absolutely nothing She gave me beautiful dreams Even today, when I think of a unique memory She captures me again And makes me blush

Everyone one of us has enjoyed, relished and suffered because of her. She has a unique quality of making and breaking bonds. Sometimes she pushes us in the right direction and helps us move forward in life. She provides a sense of purpose and helps keep pain at bay. She can be a  double-edged sword. She can corrode away sanity and make us evil. She can unleash our inner devil and make us things we repent. She is born from failure, frustrations, pain and sometimes vanity. She can have a strong hold of us She reacts in different ways to each people Some shout their way out of her Some just withdraw She can be tough sometimes But she eventually melts away With minimal damage

There is always a part of me which is a secret from even from my closest friends. These secrets are an integral part of every human being. A few pages in every book are not meant for public viewing. Still online have changed this situation and made our lives an open book even without our consent. The stalker holds the key to our secrets. And she is accessible to anyone who knows on how to use her. Our digital diary holds every step of my life and it captures my every move. She knows my name, address, family details, friends and even my distant cousins. She knows my interest right up to the colour and my deepest desires. Every morning, she tracks my journey right to the last kilometre and minute. She follows me everywhere and captures my every moment. Every search I do, every message I sent and every selfie I click is recorded. Every movie I see and song I hear is recorded. I know this, still I let her follow me.

Breakup Breakup Breakup, I whispered in my friend’s ear. He gave me a weird look and continued staring at his computer. It said the words again with little more strength and it is failed to get any attention. I shouted it at the top of my voice and it seemed to do the trick. He looked up , sighed and said, Listen I am really busy and give me some time Let me finish this and will spend some time for you. I was awestuck. He really did not take me seriously. He had trouble accepting the breakup without the drama and the stages associated with it. I just could not get out of it easily. I was confused. What cannot I have an easy breakup when people can get a divorce by saying a word three times? Yes talaq talaq talaq is the mystery word. A man can say it three times and divorce his wife. No question asked. It is one of the atrocious customs of mankind. Religion was created to civilize men. But it is a two edged sword. It teaches us a lot of good values and a few misinterpreted customs. Ma...